I’m so glad I get to see my parents and my boyfriend. I missed them both so much.
But all the things I got to forget about while I was in Pennsylvania are back and I doubt they’re any better. Problems don’t just go away, and I don’t think I have the amount of time left that is required to fix it.
I leave for orientation in exactly a month. And then after orientation, I come back for a week then I move up there. For good. And that’s it.
It’s weird. One of the girls I’ve grown up with is moving in today. That’s surreal to me. All the people I went to high school, that I got so used to seeing again on the first day of school every year, I will probably never see again. And then, those that I’m close to now, I will see them less and less and we’ll grow farther and farther apart.
I mean, I’m excited about making new friends and starting a new chapter of my life. But it’s still incredibly incredibly frightening and I don’t know who to talk to about it anymore.
I feel somewhat lonely. That’s the problem with being back in town. But I don’t know what to do because I tried. It’s nobody’s fault. There isn’t even anything to fix.